40. April 26, 2010

I just want to shout this from the rooftops....

I am declaring RIGHT NOW that not only is God ABLE to heal me totally and completely from my sicknesses, to heal both of my boys from the illnesses they suffer from, to grow my ministry, to bless my family, to provide for us, to bring those that I love that are not saved into a deep relationship with Him....He is WILLING!!! I'm expecting BIG things in my life and in the lives of my family members and I KNOW He WILL fulfill more than I can & will ever ask for, hope for, or DREAM for!!!

God has been so FAITHFUL to me!! He has plans...plans to prosper me and my family... I will trust Him with my whole life...every part of it...and wait on His timing. BUT WHILE I WAIT... oooohhhh, while I wait I will trust Him, seek Him, serve Him, love Him, draw closer to Him, praise Him, share His love and grace with others, worship and adore Him, rest in Him, dwell in His presence, give to Him...with EVERYTHING I have....EVERYTHING I AM....and with every bit of energy and strength I have!!!

THIS JOY THAT I HAVE...THE WORLD DIDN'T GIVE IT AND THE WORLD CAN'T TAKE IT AWAY!!!!!!!

39. April 25, 2010

ROMANS 8:18 "I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us."

It has been a rough two weeks. The spinal tap did not go well...after 3 trips to the hospital over a span of a few days, they finally performed a blood patch which has slowly brought my spinal fluid pressure back to normal. I am feeling much better....not 100% just yet...but MUCH BETTER, PRAISE THE LORD!!!

My shoulder is continuing to heal...a little slower than expected after all that I went through the last week and a half, but I know in a few weeks it will be much better!

NO MATTER WHAT....I will remain steadfast and faithful to the Lord who heals me, strengthens me, and gives me EXCEEDING JOY!! With His Joy in my heart, there is nothing that can break me! He gives me joy, overflowing joy that makes life endurable.

ROMANS 8:18 "I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us." Our "PRESENT SUFFERINGS"....I will NOT continue to "suffer" for long...I KNOW that "this too shall pass" because that is what My God promised!! Because of that promise (along with many others), I can "hang on" and endure anything!! They are merely sufferings of the PRESENT TIME. That means...just for a moment...then they will be over!! Then comes the GLORY- "The glory which shall be revealed in us." The glory of God choosing ME- the glory of Christ's atonement- changing me from a dirty sinner to a radiant, redeemed, renewed, and saved child of God....divine LOVE....infinite MERCY and GRACE - the power of the Holy Spirit living in me, guiding me, giving me wisdom!! The glory of seeing my Jesus face to face!! OH, THE GLORY is SO WORTH THE SUFFERING!!!!

GOD has been SO FAITHFUL to me...I can NOT sit SILENT...I will praise Him with all that I have whether I physically "feel like it" or not!! I HAVE JOY, JOY, UNSPEAKABLE JOY!!!

Hang on, dear children!!! Endure your suffering for the moment....JOY COMES IN THE MORNING!!!

38. April 14, 2010

The Lord is good...He is strong and mighty....His outstretched hand reaches me in the depths of my needs. He is ever present, ever patient and ever faithful!! HALLELUJAH!!

Due to some complications I have been having the last few weeks, my neurologist at Emory believes my Intracranial pressure is elevated again from a flare up of my Pseudo Tumor Cerebri (the illness I was diagnosed with during my pregnancy with Micah in 2003). I spent over 8 hours in the ER here in Columbus last night. They were able to relieve some of my severe headache by giving me pain meds via IV (which is ALWAYS a last resort for me, and even with the pain I was in last night the doc nearly twisted my arm to take them after I refused!).

I will have to go to my neurologist at Emory tomorrow (Thursday, April 16th) to go through yet another lumbar puncture (spinal tap)...

This will be my 10th (or 11th??) spinal tap in the last 6 or 7 years (the first 7 LP's were during the last 4 months of my pregnancy with Micah!!)

I KNOW that I am in HIS HANDS and HE WILL SUSTAIN me. With that being said, it is a difficult process and has difficult side effects. I greatly appreciate your prayers!

I will keep you posted!!
Love and blessings, Michelle

37. April 06, 2010

Praise the Lord!! It is a new day...each and EVERY day is a NEW day!!! PRAISE the LORD!!

Today I am PRAISING THE LORD for SPRING!!! I love the warmth of the sun!!! I'm not such a fan of the "gold dust", but it is WELL WORTH it for the warmth that comes with Spring!! 82 degrees today...blue jeans, a shirt, and a light weight jacket....and I was SOOO COMFORTABLE!! YAY!! No more layers and layers of clothes and heavy coats, gloves, scarves, hat, hand warmers, toe warmers....only to still FREEZE to death!!! I LOVE SPRING and SUMMER....they are much more "lupus & Raynaud's friendly" seasons!! :)

My shoulder is healing....slowly, but healing!! My surgery was two and a half weeks ago (torn labrum and repair of a suture from previous rotator cuff surgery) so I still have a long way to go...but I'm "getting there!" :)

Thank you all for your many prayers, sweet cards, encouraging words, delicious meals, love and support during my recovery!! Love and blessings to you all!!!