33. June 14, 2009

my arm hurts. not so much my shoulder....more my bicep & through my elbow. i'm trying to go without my sling as much as possible...saving it mostly for when i'm out in large crowds (more for protection than anything else). i'm trying to be patient, but i admit...i am a little frustrated....i'm really ready for it to feel better!! but i will wait....patiently, i will wait....

god has really done many works in my life....i don't have the time or space to even begin telling you all that he has done for me. possibly one of the more dramatic changes he has brought about in my personal life is changing how i view myself....how i value myself.....choosing to believe His word and what He says i am as opposed to what anyone in this world says about me. FREEDOM.....freedom from obsessing over silly things that don't matter....freedom from getting so nervous before i sing that i would physically become sick...freedom from being so overwhelmed by what other people thought of me that i overworked myself trying to impress people or shape their view of me....freedom to freely accept god's love for me...just as i am...undeserving, yet loved by Him....the real me!!

i feel closer to Him than ever before. i feel a stronger sense of His presence in my daily life. i feel a boldness that i've never had before. i want more...more of Him...in every way. i want to be used by Him...however, wherever, and whenever he calls me...

Lord, help me to hear your still, small voice and to be obedient to you. help me to love others as you love me...give me strength, both physically & mentally...fill me with your word, your wisdom, your love, your compassion, and your grace.